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© 2004-2008 Linda Escaip
"I may be grumpy, but I like you."
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The Suns and Moons of the Grumpiest Girl in the Room.
Welcome to my journal, butterfly.
It Won't Be Long 17-June-2005 3:36 p.m.
I like New York in June, how about you? Actually, I have never been there, but the song is nice. I prefer to sing "I like New Jork in Yune, ha-bee-bawd you?" But that's just me. And I sing it with this unrecognizable accent that would give any good linguist a run for their money. At a show I had years ago, I was called back to the stage for an encore but didn't have an encore song prepared, so I just sang the Oscar Mayer Wiener song, a cappella. The audience enjoyed. I think people really like songs about wieners.
Just so you know, I'm trying to change the world with that first paragraph.
I haven't spent much time at the piano lately. I am supposed to be writing songs, but don't feel like it. Writing anything here or there has been difficult. Talking hasn't been going too well either. I don't know where my words are and don't feel like trying to force them to come out of seclusion. Maybe it's writer's block. I don't know. Maybe writer's block is just a way of getting you to listen for a while. Sometimes I just want to put my hands in my pockets and watch the world quietly, without having to comment on anything. Pockets are such useful things. Shy people need pockets.
Changes are coming. I hear them shuffling about, off in the distance somewhere. They are headed in this direction. The thought of these changes makes me tired, despite the fact that they are positive. I think it's human nature to feel more comfortable where you are, to fight to stay there even if remaining there isn't particularly pleasant. Even if it's painful. Change is part of the great unknown; the sister of uncertainty.
Sometimes I wonder whether I will feel comfortable when I one day no longer have pain. I realize that sounds crazy, but I've known this for so many years now, I'm not sure I would recognize myself without it. Sometimes I picture myself standing there in the future thinking what do I do now? Will I feel confused, like someone who has just been abandoned in some faraway place without luggage and a map? Without money for a bus ride and some food? Will I know where to begin? Will I spend more time lamenting over the "lost" years than I'll spend drawing a new map for my life?
I am living proof that even the most positive change can feel unsettling when you try it on before it gets here.
Much of what we fear seems scarier until it arrives. Of course, there are exceptions. Having someone call to let you know an axe-wielding maniac in a disheveled beehive wig is on his way to your house isn't more frightening than when he arrives. And hopefully you have the good sense to not be home when that freakazoid does show up. But you gain an advantage when you come face to face with something you've feared: you have something real to work with, as opposed to what previously only existed in your imagination.
While the unknown does seem pretty scary, I think it sounds scarier to stay where you truly lack contentment. Never moving forward out of familiar territory breeds more opportunity for regret when you look back over your life. One of my biggest fears is to accumulate more regret. When I think about that, it propels me forward into everything I don't know, everything I'm unable to see. The unknown contains within itself all possibilities, just as every moment holds the same. From second to second, we are unaware of what's going to happen, so if we can be brave enough to face each moment, we can pull together the courage to face changes with grace and reconstruct our maps whenever necessary to create the lives we want to live.
Listen, may I tell you how sexy this website is? And here to prove it is some sexy stuff people looked for on the internet that brought them to this place, guaranteed to make you hate the word sexy. Enjoy.
beautiful women doing sexy things You will definitely find that here. Two minutes ago I found an uncooked penne noodle on the floor and marveled at its ability to soften when cooked in water.
sexy neighbour I've been seeing this three to four times a day for a while. It always makes me wonder if the person indeed has a sexy neighbour and they simply want to find someone else who has one so perhaps they can chat about it. But why? What would you say?
signs too sexy Maybe this person is referring to the billboards splashed all over hell, exhibiting half-naked women sporting mid-orgasm face, attempting to sell you some crap you'll never need.
kid sexy rub Dude, no. Go rub a piranha.
sexy girl farts aren't really sexy.
James sexy Women No, all the sexy Women here are mine. Tell James to get his own harem.
my loving sexy aunt is your aunt, pig.
my mom's sexy sister is still your aunt.
my boyfriend's sexy mom is probably wondering why you're always staring at her boobs. Stop that this instant, young lady.
beautiful and sexy women are everywhere. If you have to search for them on the internet, you're likely looking for the wrong credentials.
sexy women cream While you can't currently purchase a cream that will turn you into a sexy woman, you can indeed see forever on a clear day.
sexy birds Helen Mirren
sexy bird naked Helen Mirren
old sexy birds Helen Mirren (in 25 years or so)
sexy neighbour breasts There is a website (not sure of the address) where you can type in your sexy neighbour's name and up will pop a photograph of their breasts, like magic. This, however, isn't that site.
sexy women at work Isn't it neat?
sexy women alone Alone, but not lonely.
sexy women in bathroom It's the only place they can be alone.
sexy women only face and boobs Does this look like Burger King?
sexy women doing it Doing what?
sexy women doingit Because when they're really doing it, it becomes one word.
sexy women outdoors I hear it's happening more and more.
sexy women in back yards It starts with backyards, then the world.
tender sexy women Slow cookers really do the trick.
sexy women in pain Don't make me put my boot in your ass.
SEXY SLEEPING WOMEN There's nothing like watching a sexy broad drool all over her pillow, by golly.
sexy women doing... their taxes? Naked, probably. Sexy women don't like to wear clothes. In fact, they are naked at all times underneath their clothing.
shy sexy women are hiding under the couch. Take a look!
sexy women sleep Simon Says sexy women sleep.
sexy women together Would you settle for some sexy women giving each other dirty looks in a crowded room?
a few good and sexy women The U.S. Army's looking for a new breed of soldier.
Sexy moms playing with Sexy dads Sexy with a capital S.
sexy women eating ice cream This is what they do once they've finished the yard work.
sexy yard workers See above.
i have a sexy neighbour You and everyone else. Does yours have breasts?
sexy women kissing They like to do this after the yard work as well. It's a form of female bonding.
all about sexy women kissing on lips See above.
sexy brother loves sister and might need to find someplace else to live.
sexy yard girl is the unofficial title of sexy women doing yard work.
listen to sexy women Really, they know what they're talking about.
i love sexy doing night And you've also been using the Babblefish online language translation portal again.
falling asleep sexy can be very tricky because you have to keep waking yourself up to make sure you're still sexy.
sexy fortunate is how you refer to someone who is successful at falling asleep sexy.
Sexy grandma's dentures look good in that glass by the bed.
sexy lips doing the Hokey Pokey.
MOM AND BOY SEXY NIGHT until the cops show up.
mom boy friend sexy You Tarzan.
women saying sexy talking recording Me Jane.
sexy sasquatch Why, thank you. Thought you'd never notice.
You know how you'll be looking for something or other on the internet, and then when you actually get to the page you want to look at, you can't find the words you were looking for? Here's a handy tip, shoppers! Activate the Find feature by either pressing Ctrl F for Windows or Cmd F for Mac, type in the words you're looking for, hit the Find button, and there you go.
Quote From My World
"I liked how you spit the fish on my arm earlier."
Well, I'm off to sexily eat some oat bran cereal. Nobody does that like I do. I wear my boobs and everything. Sometimes I even take pictures of that activity and post them all over the internet. Thanks for reading.
Linda
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